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"Listening for the chirp, the space
sounds of my phone
Everything stops when it rings,
My whole body tense, waiting for the
vibration of her call
Everything stops when I wait for her
Early morning when it rings, I
open my eyes
Everything stops when I wake to her
A text, proclaiming her rejection of
me
Everything stops when I understand
She is with my friend, he is fucking her
Everything stops when I kill"
- Everything Stops, D.M.W. Sager
I take a deep breath. Jealousy. A cruel
and unrelenting task master; holding me hostage, threatening my lover
with violence. How quickly love turns to anger and hate. How quick one you love can turn and violate you. Love excels at changing
both itself and others. I watch as I leave all I know about myself and
life; all my beliefs fall to the wayside as I follow hard after what
I “love”. I watch my identity crumble in my pursuit, it consumes me. There is no escape from its hold, the arms of another
fan the flames into white hot tongues of searing pain. I compromise
my safety, stepping into the line of fire, nothing shall prevent me from
protecting my love. It's not a person that I protect, it's my
feeling. When I find that it's my love that I follow, not her, conviction binds me. Love is separate in this deranged sense. Love becomes a
living entity in me, demanding I make room for it, controlling my
actions and thoughts. Love must be constrained by other rules to keep
it in check and keep it pure. I must rise above it. Love, pure good
and pure evil. It disguises itself, hiding among other feelings and
manifesting in the strangest of ways. The vilest thoughts arise out
of “love”. Beware of love uncontrolled, it will easily lead to
destruction, agony, and death. Motives that should be pure, become tainted, then, suddenly, drastically, everything stops.
"Do you know what its like to lie in
wait for someone? To settle yourself in the cold drizzle of winter,
controlling the shivers, quiet, the gun by your side? Eyes strained
to see movement in the blackness, heart pumping from adrenalin of the
chase. Do you know what it's like to wait to kill the one you love?" - The Specter Of Love
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